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Beneath the falling leaves.

Yikes, sorry! SPRING STUFF

Oh Jesus.

First of all, I've obviously been incredibly busy.

I finished my junior year of college (three semesters left because my major's requirements are more stringent than those of the university). I got Dean's List honours this term as well as last and a 3.65 GPA, which, I should point out, is considered remarkable in my major. Just finishing the UMass Japanese programme, assuming I do, is considered a minor feat of strength; I was surprised to learn how highly we're apparently regarded in my field. Anyway, more importantly, I firmed up some friendships this semester too. I had a fight with a friend on the weekend of Easter, which was also my birthday and Anime Boston, but that seems to have, finally, been resolved. I've been on various reading and watching binges. As one would expect I'm neck-deep in Korra right now and have outstanding commitments for various reasons to Heartcatch Precure, The Twelve Kingdoms, and Natsume Yuujin-chou.

I have an entirely unreasonable if not outright alarming degree of FEELINGS about The Prague Cemetery, mostly because it's genuinely terrifying. I had a perhaps more to be expected set about Saint Leibowitz and the Wild Horse Woman, which made me absolutely bawl.

I was also elected to public office! I'm a member of the Town Meeting of Amherst, Massachusetts, a quaint form of local government used in New England. I'm one of 246 members and I was pretty involved in some controversial zoning votes (our side won in that the terrible development ideas that we were being presented with won't go through this year; we won only by a few votes!). I can talk more about what these controversies were and what the experience in general has been like in the comments if anybody is interested.

A week ago from the day that it now technically is on my side of the International Date Line I was finally officially confirmed in the Episcopal Church. It was the last set of confirmations for Bishop Scruton, whom I'm going to miss a lot. I'm not sure what I think of his potential successors, on whom we have not yet voted.

This summer I'm going to spend some time in Amherst with my friends and also at home with my family, doing a lot of gardening actually. A few weeks ago I finished, at long, long last, the writing project I'd been working on for two and a half years, and I've got something new going on! I've also been working on translating from a Noir artbook that I got at Anime Boston.

I also have a tumblr now!

I'm so sorry about my prolonged absence! How has everybody been?

Hi, it's been a while.

I'm sorry I haven't really been saying or doing much on here of late! I'm extremely busy.

In other news, I have no idea how to finish a question when none of the examples had a remotely similar sentence structure, film at eleven.

I'm really burnt out tonight. As long as I finish everything I'll do just fine, but that doesn't really help when the problem is that I'm being assigned some of the most unbelievably time-consuming language work imaginable to pound into my head things like the fact that 'koto ni natteiru' indicates a socially imposed demand but 'koto ni natta' indicates a necessity imposed by some specified or unspecified outside force. I'm grateful for it, but I'm getting deep muscle pain and have no idea why even though I have no other symptoms of illness and I'm starting to find it hard to confine my thoughts to one language.

Taitei, watakushi no kangae between English and Japanese wo ukimasu kara, chotto taihen na language usage wo tsukai, tomodachi ni confused saserareteshimaimasu. And yes that is a reasonable example of how my thoughts sound these days.

There's a lot of so-bad-it's-amazing yuri in the winter anime season, and I've been falling ever deeper in love with the church I've been going to the past year and a half or so as I move towards confirmation and possibly even postulancy (!).

What's been going on with you guys?
Can I cry?

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I am back at my university!

On Tuesday, I start Japanese Popular Culture, Spiritual Autobiography, and Introduction to LGBTQ Affairs! (I start Intensive Intermediate Japanese II to-morrow but that's a given.) I'm sorry I've not been much in evidence of late.

Despite some trepidation about my new Japanese textbook and the fact that the LGBTQ class will very probably end up quite tendentious and argumentative, I have to say I am looking forward to this semester.

Hit me with LGBTQ-studies stuff. I want to get into this~
Slice your soul

The syrup for the elephants cannot be put in the vessel for the ants...

I'm a lot happier with things now that I've realised that, in practise of desire for sociosexual contact if not in theoretical attraction, I'm asexual and hence my opinions about sex can be not only moralised (which I'm not going to stop doing, but only because I believe that everything has moral aspects, not because of anything unique to it), but...'identity-ised', as well. It's a lot easier both on me and on other people to look at it this way. I still do have a fairly 'sex-negative' (in a world in which I was the only moral actor I'd use the term 'love-positive', but as it is, while that term works for how I perceive myself, I can tell that it's unfair to other people in much the same way that 'sex-positive' feels to me somewhat unfair) moral compass which is far from relativistic and, hence, tends towards friction with the society that I keep, which while absolutely wonderful in most other ways is also full of people who take a line on this that I find highly problematic. I freely admit that all of this has been and continues to be the case. But I'm recognising that while I genuinely do hold these beliefs it isn't why I care; I care for a reason that's actually harder to explain but drives less of a wedge between me and other people once they do understand: Because, to use an analogy that I picked up from I-remember-not-where, it's as if everybody's life revolves around the maintenance and care of pet elephants which everybody is supposed to spontaneously accrue during puberty, and I didn't get the right kind, or mine is stunted and can't walk on its own, or I genuinely feel no desire to go through the steps of sharing my elephant with anybody else even though for most people sharing of elephants is objectively important and seems to be absolutely fascinating, or it looks more like a rhinoceros or a hippopotamus than like an elephant. But I like animals in general, and I feel like a lot of people are mistreating their elephants, even though it becomes awkward to talk or write about since I know that there's a perspective there that I lack.

(Er, sorry if anybody has trouble trudging through those sentences.)

I don't know; have I gone entirely off the reservation here? I just want to make sure I have not in fact been driven insane on the nails of my own inborn asceticism or something.

(Something weird happened with my journal so I've had to do this post twice. I don't know what exactly but the formatting was odd.)
Akashic records

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So my computer is in for repairs, because it needs a new motherboard, because the electrical circuits aren't going to the battery, and when Dell sent somebody to my house to fix it he discovered that he couldn't get some of the screws out himself because they're mounted in cheap plastic that warped around them. I'm using alternately my mother's computer and my godfather's computer. I'm able to use the Internet and write from a flash drive but I'm not able to do much else, including downloading anything and listening to the music I have stored on my computer. I'll survive--it's only going to be away for about a week or slightly more--but I'm not exactly happy about this.

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So I had a nice day with my best friend from high school. We watched period dramas/romances/however the hell else you would classify a marathon of Ever After, Elizabeth, and A Room with a View, ate chocolate ice cream, and bitched about our lives. I needed that, given some personal stuff that's been going on and the fact that I hadn't seen her in about a month (unusual, for summer).

I'm still reading A Dance with Dragons. Ramsay Bolton needs to die a horrible screaming death, preferably at either Stannis's hands or (somehow, not sure how exactly this would go) Arya's. Speaking of Stannis, he is actually pretty awesome in a terrifying way. Also awesome is Davos. And Lord Manderly. And Bran and Meera and Jojen. In fact the entire North plotline is full of awesome people.

Dany's lust for what's-his-name continues to be so tiresome. I like the Essos plotline okay but honestly if this is how Essos is going to go I could just as soon read a whole book about the North and wait for Dany to just show up on Dragonstone after doing whatever. I don't see where this is going. I want Tyrion to go to Braavos, not Meereen. I'm actually enjoying what's going on with Victarion, so I'd like more of the Iron Fleet and less of some Dornishman who to the best of my recollection we'd never seen hide nor hair of until this book.

It's almost a hundred degrees Fahrenheit here. The Stark house words are seeming less like a warning and more like a promise that I'd like to hold them to.
Triad for the end of time

Hello everynyun!

I am alive!

I'm sorry I haven't indicated this for almost two weeks, but finals were rather...there. In related news, I'm considering switching to a History major with a Japanese minor, because a lot of my writing and analysis is unavoidably ideological or at least controversial and some people think the History department may be more amenable to that, and also because I had a panic attack during my Japanese language final.

The other options, considering my interests, would be Comparative Literature or Women's and Gender Studies, but in the first of these cases I'd be expected to do even more formal foreign language study (as opposed to on my own, which I am more comfortable with and actually better at), and in the latter such departments tend to be dens of pre-existing, sometimes very firmly kept-to ideologies that might not necessarily accord with my own work or focus. Though this would depend on the department and I'm not sure what that at the University of Massachusetts is like.

Anyway, by the end of the day I'll be at my ACTUAL HOUSE for the summer (yay!) and see my CATS (YAY!!!). I'm going to have a lot of fun with my family this summer and also my friends. I plan to help my mother with the early stages of learning Japanese, which she wants to do too for reasons that I don't fully understand yet.

My two final papers (as opposed to exams), for Japanese Women Writers and Legal Studies, both went very, very well, actually. I'm quite pleased about that.

Since Madoka finished I've picked up Hanasaku Iroha, aka 'Anne of Green Gables GONE HORRIBLY HORRIBLY WRONG'. I like it a lot so far. I also need to catch up on the latest two episodes of Doctor Who. Seriously. I'll probably do that at some point to-night or to-morrow, Saturday if I'm too tired and/or busy until then. I definitely want to be caught up by whenever the Neil Fucking Gaiman episode airs on BBC America.

So, how has everyone else been?
Beneath the falling leaves.


I am alive!

I had spring break, which was mainly watching anime, talking with friends, writing, sleeping, and not drinking or partying. Now I am back in Amherst and as such am a little less lethargic. So will probably actually post more again.

I was on the train from New Jersey to Massachusetts for most of the day. It's actually a beautiful ride in parts, but now my legs and head hurt.

How are all of you?